Thursday, October 16, 2025

 Journal Entry – October 16

This morning started with a really positive conversation with my doctor about the medication Amanda mentioned. She was completely fine writing the prescription, and we had a good discussion about healthy habits. One key takeaway for me was to establish scheduled meal times and avoid eating in my car. I think this will really help me and my family, and I’m planning to focus on that over the next few weeks.

Around 10 a.m., I had breakfast — two turkey sausages, a pickle, a small everything bagel, and an energy drink. My husband made me eggs with garlic and fresh spinach. I felt good while eating, although I noticed that familiar voice in my head saying, “You’re eating too much.” I reminded myself of Amanda’s words: Food is good. You have the right to nourish your body and enjoy your meal.

I want to start meal-prepping smaller portions so I can be more intentional — practicing intuitive eating while still being aware of how much food I’m having. When I eat too much, I don’t feel good physically or emotionally.

Journal Entry – Reflection on Food and Emotions

Today I realized that when I talk or think too much about food, I start to feel very anxious and overwhelmed. My mind doesn’t shut off, and that leads me to eat quickly and without enjoyment.

This morning I had a large breakfast and later ordered a big bowl of vegetables with chicken, rice, and a chocolate chip cookie. I didn’t enjoy the food — I just scarfed it down. I ended up throwing part of it away so I wouldn’t go back and eat more. Afterward, I felt disappointed and physically uncomfortable.

I understand that my overeating came from feeling overwhelmed by all the food conversations lately — with my doctor, my husband, and even planning upcoming events. My doctor suggested having set meal times, which might help bring more structure and reduce anxiety.

Even though I’m frustrated, I also recognize this as part of my learning process. I know there will be days like this, and instead of being angry, I’m trying to focus on awareness, self-compassion, and starting fresh for the rest of the day. I want to learn better ways to handle the anxiety that comes up when food becomes the main focus.

Key insight: I’m learning to recognize my triggers, be aware of my actions, and remind myself that setbacks don’t erase progress — they’re part of the journey.