Friday, October 24, 2025

 I think this new medicine makes me really sleepy. The only reason I’m eating’ cause I’m thinking it’s gonna help me not be sleepy. Maybe who knows

eating 1139am 150 cal natural Valley cinnamon brown sugar, breakfast bar

I did not eat again until 6 o’clock at night. I had a group of ladies over for girls night and we got Mexican and watched old Whitney Houston movie, waiting to exhale.

I ordered a chicken steak and shrimp burrito. It was enormous. I just picked. It was called half and I just picked the insides out and ate it with tortilla chips. I give the other half to my cousin and then my friend made guacamole and I ate the guacamole how was I feeling? I was looking around watching people watching me eat which Mimi disengage from eating as much I was enjoying the food but had a lot of mixed emotions then I had a small piece of cheesecake and then I felt the binge eating coming out. I wanted more but there’s no way I was gonna eat more with everyone around right 

so there was this four piece container of small slices of cheesecake when everyone left I grabbed the container and I ate three pieces quickly. I wasn’t even completely enjoying the bites and I was disappointed and mad at myself, but I didn’t stop. It’s definitely it’s like a high feeling, but I told myself tomorrow’s a new day.