October 9, 2025

 OK, Thursday, October 9 I finally got. I think I was hungry. I don’t know if I’m hungry. I’m just thinking about food. It was 9:30 AM. I finally went downstairs at 10 AM and ended up eating a egg bite that just had a little bit of Coach cheese in it two turkey sausages, a pickle and a mini little cheese when I ate it I actually felt hungry and happy then about 1 o’clock. I think I felt hungry and I was very overwhelmed because I knew I had meetings back to back until 430 and it’s like I could go downstairs and make myself a turkey wrap but instead I get anxious and I ordered a toasted bagel with butter and a small chicken apple salad from Panera I ate it and it tasted like heaven. I enjoyed it thoroughly but then I felt guilty because I knew we were going to go out to eat tonight, but I told myself it was OK. The food was not bad. It’s only like I don’t remember how many calories then for supper we met up at a winery with each had a drink. We ate off a charcuterie board, which had a really small portion of pimento cheese, hummus, carrots, pickled asparagus, olives, smoked salmon, and salami then I was feeling happy and I thought I was still hungry and my husband said that he would split a burger and fries with me which he didn’t so I ate half the burger and was full and ate about 10 french fries and a Diet Coke. I felt guilty and ashamed I ate twice.