Friday, October 17, 2025

 Friday, October 17

I started the day early, getting up at 5:45 AM for a short walk around the block before showering and getting ready for our trip to the Columbia Zoo. On the way, we stopped at McDonald’s where I had an egg and sausage McMuffin, Diet Coke, and coffee. I wasn’t really hungry and it took me about two hours to finish it—mostly just felt tired rather than hungry or full.

Around 11 a.m. at the park, we split a pretzel with cheese and another Diet Coke. Later, when we left around 2 p.m., we ate the ham and Swiss sandwiches on Hawaiian rolls that we’d packed, along with pickles and a small bag of pretzels. Again, I didn’t feel much emotionally—just ate so I wouldn’t get hungry later. I didn’t particularly enjoy it, but it felt fine and helped prevent me from feeling starved or getting a headache later in the day.

The best news of the day was finding out that the prescription Amanda recommended was approved by insurance and is being filled at CVS. I’m really grateful for that.

for supper, I had two pieces of cheese and pepperoni pizza, a portion of Greek salad and four slices of some chocolate chip cookie pie.  I am trying to continuously tell myself that food is good. I am entitled to nourish my body. It is OK to eat and I actually enjoyed this meal and in every bite I enjoyed except I felt guilty. I should’ve just had two slices the slices I should’ve just had two pieces of the cookie pie and I had four I did feel guilty but other than that I enjoyed the meal.